By Brandon Koebernik | Featured Contributor
Mom was schizophrenic.
Dad was bipolar.
What could I get from it?
I found out as I got older.
It started when I joined the military,
Army National Guard.
I don’t believe I was wary,
Of how things could get so hard.
A lot of time had passed.
I started noticing changes,
To the point where I wore a mask,
To hide all of the passing phases.
I’m fine, I’ll get over it.
Or so I thought.
So often I wanted to quit,
Stressful situations left me distraught.
I was depressed and angry,
Outbursts cost me friendships.
Seeking help wasn’t very manly,
So I kept taking the hits.
I woke up questioning myself,
What is my purpose?
Am I meant to rot on a shelf?
Why do I feel so worthless?
If you could weaponize tears,
I would’ve built an army.
I had nothing but fears,
Would my mind harm me?
I said enough was enough,
I had to take care of me.
I knew it would be rough,
But it was the road to safety.
I can’t say that I’m cured,
But I’m better than I was.
In many ways I’ve matured,
For therapy wasn’t a bust.
It helped clarify many things,
I now knew I had Bipolar Disorder.
This diagnosis gave me wings,
I was no longer leaning on the border.
I’ve been able to mitigate problems,
I’m now mindful of my emotions.
The stresses of life I’ve overcome,
Have put a lot of things in motion.
I no longer believe it was my fault,
Nothing I did caused me that pain.
I was a victim of a mind assault,
Courtesy of a chemical imbalance in my brain.
There is a moral to my story,
Seeking help may benefit you too.
You don’t have to feel sorry…
Someone will be there to love you.
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Mental Health National Helpline
1-800-662-HELP (4357)
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Loved it and the message shared. Beautifully profound and meaningful work, thank you for sharing.
A so much needed message. And beautifully done in verse.
It inspires me. ☺️
Thanks for reading!
Some do not get help and end up taking their own life! What a tragic loss! Great post!
Thank you for reading!
Great message and beautiful work! I like the phrase “mind assault”.
Thank you for the kind words!
This takes bravery! I have a nephew struggling as well. We’re trying to get him to seek help…. he’s right society says it’s not very manly to do so!! Hoping for the day that stigma is burned to ashes!
I agree. The stigma must be crushed. Thank you for reading!
What a heartfelt poem….simply beautiful….
Thank you very much!
You’re very welcome!
It takes courage and willpower to accomplish what you have
Now you possess strengths others do not have
Normal people have not had to survive an abusive childhood
At your age you will be a beacon fir many
I appreciate the kind words. Thank you for reading!
Such a touching poem. You’re voicing out other people’s thoughts as well?
Somewhat. My goal is to voice my experience and show that it’s okay to not be okay. My hope is that others find my message relatable and hopefully it encourages them to seek help like I did. Thank you for reading!
That’s beautiful
Somewhat. My goal is to share my experience in hopes that others may find it relatable and maybe seek the help that they may need. Thank you for reading!
This is an amazing article. I genuinely enjoyed reading it. For some strange reason, seeking help with mental issues is so difficult compared to seeking help as an individual with a physical ailment. People tend to think you are after getting attention when all you desire is help.
Thank you for the kind words. You’re absolutely correct. Seeking help for mental issues should be no different than finding help for physical ailments. Your brain is a muscle, so just like any other muscle it needs to be taken care of. Thank you for reading!